So I was just thinking about my random blogpost a long time back on another site and I decided to repost it here.

It's just some analogy that I did a few years back on the resemblance between Santa Claus and Cai Shen Ye (God of Fortune)

Don't you think Cai Shen Ye (God of fortune) and Santa Claus is essentially the same person just in a different outfit?

1. They're both short and stout with a big tummy
   
2. They both have beards. (Just that santa's white and Cai Shen Ye's black)
   
3. They both adorn red outfits during the festive season
   
4. They both wear headpieces
   
5. They both carry gifts that everyone wants. (Money and luck and presents)
   
6. Santa's song is "Santa Claus is coming to town" Cai Shen Ye's tune is "Cai Shen dao!" (God of fortune is here!)

1. Both of them work for the good of departmental stores. ( I bet they get loads of commission aye!haha)

There is approx 120 calories in a single pineapple tart. Just to let you know. But i'm not counting! haha. Just keeping my intake to one per house. lol!

GONG XI GONG XI! Hope you've been having a heck of a new year stuffing your face because I know i have! :)

xoxoxo

or NOT!!!

Okay so a few things have been setting me thinking much about life and just how much of a 'failure' I am in it. Been having a few conversations with my mum and I've come to the conclusion that yes, some may see it as being a failure in life, but I see it as me having so much more to life.

I'm not the greatest student in the world, nor am I the most hardworking of kids. I don't ace all my exams, and I certainly don't do all my homework. Academically wise, yes I'm pretty much a failure as a student of Singapore. I don't aim for the best grades, I just do average. I'm not the most talented of people, playing all sorts of sports and having all sorts of artistic talents. Nope. In fact, I'm quite a failure because I can't even get into a local university properly.

Yes. But then, I think to myself, around me are people all stressed about life, all stressed about school work and aiming to get the best possible scores for the O's / A's / university exams. The highest GPAs possible, the most number of A's attainable. The fight over scholarships, over job prospects, over their future.

But just think about it, is that really all there is to life? Is it true that the only way to be successful in life is to be at the top earning the most money in the world? Is it true that you are a successful student the day you attain the scholarship of your dreams? Is it really? I don't know. I certainly don't see it that way.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to console myself for my lazy ass or make myself feel like a million bucks. No way am I trying to look down on anyone whose dreams are of those mentioned above. Don't get me wrong. It's just that I don't understand why Singaporean parents and children nowadays put so much pressure on themselves to achieve what is deemed the best for the child. The best for the future.

Students are spammed with an overload of assignments and tuition classes. A slew of extra curricular classes follow suit as a form of 'relaxation' on the weekends. But really, is that what being a success in life is all about? What's the point of rising to the top, only to realise you've not done all the things you wanted to do in life because you were too busy trying to be 'successful'?

Is a kid who enjoys his weekends flying kites and riding bicycles by the beach a failure in life? Is a kid who doesn't want to / can't go to university a failure too? I beg to differ. In fact I think the otherwise.

Nobody wants to be a failure. And nobody is.

The only way I would say you are a failure, is when you've lived a life, but not lived it to the fullest. When you've done things according to not how the world would have deemed you to be successful but not how you would have defined it.

So go on, live life, after all, what's life without a few ups and downs? Better to fall 1 step than to fall 100 when you've reached the 'very' top. Someone is always better than you, so just live life. You've only got 1 to live. :)

C'est la vie!

I think he's like one of the cutest millionaires around. :)

11 days into the new year and it's been a pretty good start. 2 trips to Thailand later and back, I've seem to found a new perspective to many things around me. I've grown a little older, become a little wiser, tried to control my emotions much better. In the year that i'm gonna turn 21, I plan to grow up just that little bit more. JUST ABIT. NOT TOO MUCH. :)

I plan to still shop as much, eat as much and be as bimbotic as much. (In a good way). Hehe. * oh Cheryl Tan, it's time to grow up doncha think?*

It's been pretty fun to start off with a trip of independance this year to Hua Hin for my first overseas assignment. I didn't think i'd survive 5 days of men around me constantly without going home to look at my mum's face for 5 minutes. But it wasn't all too bad. In fact, i've learnt so much about working alone, it's pretty unbelievable. To be able to hold myself as a person much respected for at work is pretty amazing. (the feeling i mean) I never thought i'd be that appreciated till I was truly appreciated. And you don't know how much that means to me. :)

I gotta love my job just that much more. Pay me as I continue to watch cute golfers and atheletes strut their stuff as they put a touch of their magic on the sports. Oh Ryo Ishikawa, Matteo Manassero, Shunsuke Sonoda... :) hehehehe!

Say Hello to Wabbit aka Cinnamon Roll... haha!

I swear it's butt looks just like this...

I kid you not. HAHA. So cute la! IT'S SOOOO FLUFFY!!! I loves it much much. Thankie bubs. :) But no worries, Waylon Jnr is still here. And being taken care of. HEHE.

Ahh it's just been too long since i last blogged... Just haven't had the time with all the busy-ness of school and work and school and work. It was finally nice to have a little breather for abit last week before the madness starts again.

I was just thinking through today, as I saw multitudes of secondary 4 students pass me in school for Red Camp 6, that just a few years back, it was where it all started for me. It just seemed like yesterday that I too was one of them walking through the school of FMS, looking at the radio conti with such admiration and thinking of my big dreams of becoming a journalist some day. As I looked and studied the testimonies of the famous few that plagued the walls of FMS, I knew just then that there was where I wanted to be.

And as I worked my way to become a future FMS student, my one and only goal was to get into Mass Communications and through my grace, I did. Then, I learnt the beauty of video and shoots. And once again, my life was changed forever. I knew that my future could be in writing but it must also be in television. I loved the beauty of it all. How ideas could turn into stories could turn into 'reality'. I loved visuals and moving images. I loved how I could make my fantasies into reality. I loved how I could make things up and make belief. :)

Year 3 was a whirlwind and I got thrown into (in my mind), the worst possible module I could ever see myself go through. SPORTS JOURNALISM. I hated it, detest it, really wanted to get out of it. But till this day, I can for sure say, that it was through the ultimately precise planning of God that I got into that. I've never once regretted or felt apologetic to this module. And if by anything, I would say it is one of the best things that's happened to me so far. It's brought me so many opportunities and gave me so much insight to things i'd never imagine myself to do or see. Who would ever think that I bimbo like me would ever have anything to do with sports.

Hawaii was a whole new experience altogether. What more can I say about being able to live on paradise island for 5.5months and be independant on my own. No words can describe just the impeccable experience I had. Definitely no regrets.

And now Chapman. Though it's just begun, I can't believe but it's already been more than 3 months and I'm enjoying it all so far. What more can I ask for when I get to constantly watch movies and critic them. But most of all, I just love scriptwriting. Scripting gives me a sense of freedom, a way to let my mind go. I can write whatever I want, whatever I love, whatever I see. There's no right or wrong, just ideas that pop into my head occasionally. I love how my ideas turn into stories, my experiences turn into misadventures for my characters.

Today I was asked once again, "Cheryl, what do you want to be?" And i'm safe to reply, "I want to be a producer, a producer writer. I want to produce documentaries and stories that touch the lives of others. Live events that give me a sense of adrenaline rush. That is what I want to be".

And so I urge you students I saw today, that all you have to do is dream. To dream is to see a future of yours, to achieve it is to see it coming true. :)

And of course with my writing prowess comes a story about a boy that I had developed with a few friends about Happiness. We're staging a musical this 18th of December at my church (Bethesda Katong Church) so do come down to give it a chance at touching your life. :)

Because just like me, sometimes in life,

You don't always get what you want. But if you try sometimes, you'll find, you get what you need.

I would like...

1) A gazillion macaroons

2) A round trip around the world fully paid for, complete with a partner to go along with

3) Liquid foundation and brown eye-liner

4) A set of make-up brushes

5) A big bunch for helium balloons that walk behind me

6) A brand new room complete with every expandable wardrobe and bag space

7) An iphone

8) An A+ for every paper that I sit for

9) An awesome job

10) Oh yes, and an awesome possum looking cake that tastes just as good as it looks. :))))

Ok random, tough and some unatainable. But hey, its all I wish for huh! :)

Take me deeper, deeper in love with you.
Jesus hold me close in your embrace.
Take me deeper, deeper than i've ever been before.
I just want to love you more and more.
How I long.. to be deeper in love.

Take me from sunrise to sunrise and help me to see you. Be my pillar of strength from this day forward and help me to lean on you. For I know that you are there and I know that you are true. But I sometimes I forget, that you'll always be a constant in my life.

I want to sit and listen. I want someone to talk to. And I long for a physical presence.

But now I want. To sit and talk. To sit and pray and cry. Because I know you're hearing me, my every thought, my every word, my every lie.

You're the bestest friend I can have, the strongest arms to fall into.

I love you this much.

I don't understand to believe, I believe to understand.